Archive for May, 2011

Who the heck writes this kind of shit?!

“Ah, all the places that you’ve been, all the people that you know.. A true balance. And who would’ve known that chemistry started with scent?

I don’t say a whole lot. I’m terrible with words, especially when I’m completely caught off guard, it’s almost like I don’t know how to react. But I listen, and I feel.

The other night I Felt like a could’ve cried because I was happy but I didn’t know how to express it. Is it shameful to say that I don’t think anyone has ever told me something so sweet? I’m complimented plenty, I suppose people like to say that they enjoy my company- but I never felt so special till the words came tumbling out of your mouth, my heart was racing.

Happiness, is that what it’s like? You choke up your words, hold your breath and could hardly stop smiling? You almost want to scream, but your eyes water instead and everything else inside you freezes except your heart. I’ve never been so lost for words like that.

If that was happiness- next time finish it with a kiss and I may faint, but I’ll be all yours. ”


Eff you. I wrote that shit three nights ago, or something like that.


Yeah, it’s one of those days..


But who really cares? One day it’s this, the next it’s that.. Psh.

real spit.

In the end we take for granted, and then we are taken for granted. It is what it is, right?

heres what i gotta say

To some people, you seem cool and detached. To others, you seem the embodiment of warmth and kindness. Which of these images fits you best, Aquarius? Probably both. You can be a bit distant at times. Okay, much of the time. Yet you are also quite open-minded, non-judgmental, and you are quite willing to give the shirt off your back to anyone who needs it. Someone in your world, though, is hoping you could blend these two characteristics more often. If there is someone special in your world who needs to see more of your affectionate side, make sure you let that side of yourself shine.

That there was today’s horoscope- well, I don’t know how to do that. I don’t make moves. Not my style, which is why in my usual case opposites attract, they compliment what you lack. That’s it. That’s all.

You know when you think about something over and over..

And you almost feel like that’s exactly how it should play out? Well, here’s what I think about that- it’s the sweetest way to speak with the Universe, absolutely, but it’s also a nice set up of let down. It’s fairy tales. It’s all fairy tales, and when things play out differently, remember all your expectations are fairy tales.  Don’t expect too much. Don’t play the fool.

fair·y tale

fairy tales, plural

  • A children’s story about magical and imaginary beings and lands
  • Denoting something regarded as resembling a fairy story in being magical, idealized, or extremely happy
    • – a fairy-tale romance
  • A fabricated story, esp. one intended to deceive


“I’m open- you’re closed”

Worry- I worry.

But this time, there’s too much going on for me to stop the walls from forming. I hope- I can only hope that it’s understood that sometimes some things go wrong and that stops all progression till things can clean up and go right again.

“Even the best fall down sometime- even the wrong words seem to rhyme, out of the doubt that fills your mind- you’ll finally find- you and I collide.”


Admittedly, only about 6-7 hrs later.

How is that even possible? Who could keep up with my quick changing mind and all my simple dreams? I’m no good with feelings, especially displaying affection- but I do my best. Funny, if I were to read through old FRIENDSTER testimonials I’d find that everyone certainly agrees that I’ve always been outgoing. I have brain vomits quite frequently, and so on and so forth.

Realization of my shy approach to my emotional wants has hit me- and it hit me hard.

A great friend tonight mentioned that I could possibly let what it is be if I continue to withhold my thoughts.

Timing. Timing is everything, and when I feel my calling to let all the walls down I’ll take a deep breath in, cross my fingers and hope the world doesn’t spin out of control.

Everything nowadays is so different. Everything.